《告解》 Confession /黄龙坤

我父輩給我分享精液的權利 
無奈我只渴求精液 
歸去
我隱形的子宮裡 

當愛人迫使我吞下的那刻 
我預料了聲帶 
在告解之前會沙啞 
因粘稠 
而無法開口 

父親啊，對不起 
身體發膚受之父母 
每一次的吞下 
將在我體內困成 
制度 

精液已溶成馴獸般適應的習性 
不用消化也約定成俗了
告解只是 
某種迎合大眾的 
形式 

My forefathers bestowed the rights to share semen upon me
Yet I helplessly desired only semen
to be returned
to my invisible womb

The moment my lover forced me to swallow
I foresaw that my vocal cord
would become hoarse before the confession
My mouth could not open
because of the viscosity

Sorry, dear father
The body was given by parents
Every swallow
would be trapped inside and
institutionalized

The semen had been diluted into a habit, as adaptable as a tamed beast
It had become customary that disgestion was unnecessary
As for confession
it’s just a crowd-pleasing
formality